I can’t tell you the exact number of ways I love you babe. Everything about you made me fall in love. I couldn’t help myself even when my instincts were telling me not to…even when you told me not to. I am who I am. I don’t fall for just anyone, I barely even let anyone into my life. But the moment I met you, I wanted it all. I wanted you to be in my future and that’s all I could see..you and me walking hand in hand, loving..laughing..and just being happy. I don’t know where I went wrong but I did and for that I’ll live with regret for the rest of my life. You made me feel so special. I hope I did the same for you. You are a wonderful woman Mistie. The most wonderful woman and I tried my hardest to make you feel that way and show how much you meant to me. I’ll never stop loving you and I want you to have a wonderful life. I wish I could be a part of that. My door is always open honey. You have a permanent key to my heart if you ever choose to want it. I love you baby, more than you will ever truly know.
I know I don’t pray to you much, but I rarely ask you for anything either. I did in Iraq because I needed my soul cleansed and I thank you for that..you were there. I asked you for help that one time in jail and you came through…thank you again. I know I betrayed you and myself when I paid for Betty’s abortion. For that, I’m truly sorry and regret it. Please know I never wanted to do it but for the love of a girl, I caved in…I was wrong. And now I find myself asking you to help me in the name of love again. But this time, I just want you to guide her. Give her some relief. I want her in my life but I’ll understand if she’s not meant to be there. Just help her Lord, I’ll be fine. The pieces always fit back together. She’s a wonderful woman and she deserves the best in life. I pray she gets it and if I’m lucky, I’ll be there to see it happen. Thank you again for all that you have carried me through.